a picture I took at sunset in Malibu on Saturday November 18, 2006
Sometimes you just go through those emotional times when you just want to breakdown. Well I don't very often so when it happens I have to just let it.
Normally I'm always the listener, I try to be strong for others and in times like these I wonder who will be strong for me and who will listen to me.... even though I sometimes won't let them. Instead I just disappear into nothingness, since I have to continue being the strong personality that I am and not show weakness.
So yeah....I've been sad the last couple weeks. Sometimes you just see things that you enjoyed or seemed good to you, ending or changing. Change can be good but sometimes sad when it affects people you care about. In the end though things usually come out ok....I know But it still makes me sad.
And people I care about.... sometimes I just start to wonder if they really care anymore or ever did. Then I start to think what's wrong with me am I just not that lovable. Otherwise why would the people I care about disappear or seem to not really care all that much anymore. I know it can be silly but you can't help how your heart feels or how your emotions lead you sometimes.
I am a very deep thinking person and sometimes those emotions run deep as well. I love deeply, I care deeply, so when I finally hit the wall and am upset it is so much more than one little thing.
Everyone is so busy in life anymore..... it is just part of living. But sometimes we forget to let the people we care about know that they are important to our life. I know we can all be guilty of that at times. You just never know what time you have on this earth or the other person has. It is sad to lose the time we have to enjoy those that enrich our lives. You can't get the time back. You never know if the next day they will be gone never to return again. And the regrets you will be left with and the goodbyes you can no longer say. Or the love you can never show them again.
One thing that can come out of sorrow and reflecting for me is my creativity. I am so glad I have my strong emotional tie to music and how healing it can be in letting those feelings out. So I try to write and work in those emotions. My favorite place is the beach so tonight that is where I headed. One of the beautiful things about living in southern California
And being that it is like summer in the middle of winter one week before Thanksgiving I ended up in Malibu at the beach just as the sun was going down. [pictured above] It was almost like my own small blessing. I decided to go there to just be with myself and my own thoughts. Maybe write some lyrics.
Caught the beautiful last light just as the sun dipped into the ocean. As it turned to night, I walked into the sand and sat in a chair with a blanket wrapped around me. It was awesome out, not even that cold. AS I sat there I watched the last few surfers come in and a guy sat behind me with his friend strumming his guitar. For the hour I sat there talking on my phone to a dear friend, the man never stopped playing and singing his soft melody. At times I almost forgot he was still there, it seemed like backround music with the sounds of the ocean.
Then fireworks started in the sky over to the side from some house. I am not even kidding, beautiful fireworks that lasted a few minutes. And still the guitar in the backround and a guys soft voice. I wasn't even afraid to be there at night, it just seemed like my own personal treasure and haven. Suddenly I don't know when it happend but I noticed the fog had come in and was all around me so I left.
It was a beautiful way to end the last couple weeks, still a slight sadness but time and life go on. So just don't forget to let people you care about....... actually know you care. We all need to hear it once in awhile.
I got a poem tonight from a friend and It seemed a perfect way to end this.
A RON ARAGON CREATION
A tear in the sky will always appear whenever a baby's cry is near. A cloud will roll by and many a raindrop will fall when a loved one leaves this existence finally once and for all. A tear in the sky is around, when the sound of pieces from a broken heart hit a low emotional ground. The sky will somewhat fall, when that sliver of hope is there, but seems somewhat none existent and close to very small. A tear in the sky can only appear, if only you don't let the opportunity of love in any form by you get near.
by Ron Aragon
Sometimes you just go through those emotional times when you just want to breakdown. Well I don't very often so when it happens I have to just let it.
Normally I'm always the listener, I try to be strong for others and in times like these I wonder who will be strong for me and who will listen to me.... even though I sometimes won't let them. Instead I just disappear into nothingness, since I have to continue being the strong personality that I am and not show weakness.
So yeah....I've been sad the last couple weeks. Sometimes you just see things that you enjoyed or seemed good to you, ending or changing. Change can be good but sometimes sad when it affects people you care about. In the end though things usually come out ok....I know But it still makes me sad.
And people I care about.... sometimes I just start to wonder if they really care anymore or ever did. Then I start to think what's wrong with me am I just not that lovable. Otherwise why would the people I care about disappear or seem to not really care all that much anymore. I know it can be silly but you can't help how your heart feels or how your emotions lead you sometimes.
I am a very deep thinking person and sometimes those emotions run deep as well. I love deeply, I care deeply, so when I finally hit the wall and am upset it is so much more than one little thing.
Everyone is so busy in life anymore..... it is just part of living. But sometimes we forget to let the people we care about know that they are important to our life. I know we can all be guilty of that at times. You just never know what time you have on this earth or the other person has. It is sad to lose the time we have to enjoy those that enrich our lives. You can't get the time back. You never know if the next day they will be gone never to return again. And the regrets you will be left with and the goodbyes you can no longer say. Or the love you can never show them again.
One thing that can come out of sorrow and reflecting for me is my creativity. I am so glad I have my strong emotional tie to music and how healing it can be in letting those feelings out. So I try to write and work in those emotions. My favorite place is the beach so tonight that is where I headed. One of the beautiful things about living in southern California
And being that it is like summer in the middle of winter one week before Thanksgiving I ended up in Malibu at the beach just as the sun was going down. [pictured above] It was almost like my own small blessing. I decided to go there to just be with myself and my own thoughts. Maybe write some lyrics.
Caught the beautiful last light just as the sun dipped into the ocean. As it turned to night, I walked into the sand and sat in a chair with a blanket wrapped around me. It was awesome out, not even that cold. AS I sat there I watched the last few surfers come in and a guy sat behind me with his friend strumming his guitar. For the hour I sat there talking on my phone to a dear friend, the man never stopped playing and singing his soft melody. At times I almost forgot he was still there, it seemed like backround music with the sounds of the ocean.
Then fireworks started in the sky over to the side from some house. I am not even kidding, beautiful fireworks that lasted a few minutes. And still the guitar in the backround and a guys soft voice. I wasn't even afraid to be there at night, it just seemed like my own personal treasure and haven. Suddenly I don't know when it happend but I noticed the fog had come in and was all around me so I left.
It was a beautiful way to end the last couple weeks, still a slight sadness but time and life go on. So just don't forget to let people you care about....... actually know you care. We all need to hear it once in awhile.
I got a poem tonight from a friend and It seemed a perfect way to end this.
A RON ARAGON CREATION
A tear in the sky will always appear whenever a baby's cry is near. A cloud will roll by and many a raindrop will fall when a loved one leaves this existence finally once and for all. A tear in the sky is around, when the sound of pieces from a broken heart hit a low emotional ground. The sky will somewhat fall, when that sliver of hope is there, but seems somewhat none existent and close to very small. A tear in the sky can only appear, if only you don't let the opportunity of love in any form by you get near.
by Ron Aragon
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